It rained and rained

This kinda always happens when I'm going to meet her. It was raining when I met her, leave her for home or something to do with her. Today was no exception as I went out with her.

Let me back track a little here. Yesterday was actually eventful cause I went to town to get the teddy bear for her. Yes I bought her a me-to-you bear. It blew my budget and my bank account, but it was worth every penny. I did not regret getting it. And so now, imagine me, carrying a guitar and a bag walking into a departmental shop in town walking to the section where all the girls were crowding, saying "sorry, excuse me", making sure my bag or guitar did not hit anything off the racks. Looking at me-to-you bears and choosing one of them. Then walking to the cashier and paying for the bear. I guess that might have been a weird sight. Even the cashier paused and looked at me for second before actually proceeding with the payment process.

So I carried my guitar, my bag and the bear in a shopping bag and walked to take a bus to church. Man, I carried everything to church and it is heavy. Not the bear, the guitar was. I had to hide the bear in my bag so that the people I'm meeting in church wont ask anything. Last night I was really excited to tell her but I did my best to shut up. And I'm glad I did.

SO, I was very excited and happy to go out with her today. She looked pretty as usual, I sometimes wonder if I'm lucky to go out with a pretty girl like her, or unfortunate not to be with her. I rather look on the the brighter side of life. I'm lucky to go out with a pretty girl like her. I wanna be happy :) My pretty girl will come along soon, I hope.

Yes I got moody today, for a short while cause she was wearing back her ring. Well I got affect a bit la. Didn't want to admit that I know she is moving on. I'm selfish I know. But I really do like you. As we went to catch the movie, I really thought that I might fall for you again. But I managed to muster my feelings. I just cared for you as a friend.

The show was good. I quite like it though it was CHEESY! but its a good comedy. Nice and funny. The movie made me happy. It kinda told me something."Your future would be fine, just keep moving forward." I hope I can move forward. Slowly put her out of my mind. Care for her but know my limits. Show her love, but also within limits.

I hope she like the bear. I hope she had fun today. I hope she's happy. I hope we can go out again like this.

im now smiling and smiling. you made my day, thank you girl.