All the same - Sick Puppies

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly

I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do

I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same

Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

this songs reflects what I feel. but i know one thing for sure, she wont have a scarred heart.

But, i'll take you for who you are, if you take me for everything. even if you do it all over again. it's all the same.

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

this has some truth in it. that is how i feel. this is what i am now.

This is gonna be a long post :)

Today had been a very interesting day. I was doing my QT and I had the thoughts of taking her away, and kill him. Then I thought of David. Maybe I can try, but it struck me that David was a man after God's own heart. David knew God very very well in his journey with God. How can I compare myself with David!

Then in today's BAG session, David was mentioned again. About the same thing. But what I'm reflecting now is that, God wont look at what I have done, being a 3rd party and just careless about me. God wont look at what David has done, being a adulterous man and a murderer and then careless about him. God wants to use David still. so as long as David repents and seeks forgiveness. The same way, I hope that God would use me.

In this same session, the verse we were looking at today is Samson and Delilah. Yes, the same passage that really made me think twice if I should continue loving her. In my "time with the master", the part where what the Lord said to me scared the shit out of me. In there I wrote, "becareful who you love, lest it leads you to your own destruction."

But this time round it was quite funny. Sharon found that the writer who added this detail is really funny. But who knows, it might be true for me. It said, " she pestered him daily with her words and pressed him, so that his soul was vexed to death." WOAH! is this my warning also? That she might nag me to death? Well, its a laughable thought, but yea, who knows. Anyway, she is really a nice girl so I believe she can't bear to nag me to death :)

Well, I guess now I'm ok. Just as long as she is talking to me and all I should be fine. Sooner or later, things will carry on, I'll get numbed to stuff save for that 25% for her. I just hope on her side those feelings and memories wont be lost as well.

its all the same