I'm so HOT I feel like I'm on FIRE!

Today is just such an amazing day that I have to blog about it and keep it as records.

Today at 10am, I went to attend Heidi Baker's conference. Last night I really felt the Lord's presence and I heard Him speaking to me. And in the morning as I heard her speak again, I didnt really felt stirred, but at the end of the day, as I was traveling home, I recalled these words she say. Give 100% to Jesus, give 100% to Him. And I am desperate for MORE OF HIM! As I pour out my cup, He'll fill it up again and again and again. Everyday!

So as I was waiting for the bus, I was on my ipod and I heard Him say, " Off it, I wanna speak to you." I obeyed. I just did. Switched off the ipod, keep it in my bag and He spoke to me.

He reminded me of the favour I had in the afternoon. I went to School of Music and Arts (SoMA) in the afternoon wanting to speak to some of the teachers there who have graduated from Berklee. I went there, was kinda late for any workshop that I registered and well, I end up talking to the mother of the Director of SoMA. She insisted that she get her son to talk to me and I was like, WOW! That is some string pulling and I never expected that. Though I didnt manage to talk to him about Berklee, I had an appointment (sort of) made with him to come by for a chit chat. What a great favour! I'm truly in awe of God and the favour He's given to me.

After reminding me about the afternoon event, He reminded me of what watchman taught at the YA retreat. Watchman taught us how to be HOT! We Hear, we Obey, we Trust. In that sequence, in that order. Dont question, just listen and obey and trust. And that is what I did with my ipod. Simple simple instructions.

Then He led me to pray. He led me to pray for Uncle Jeremy and his baby. I called upon Jesus, I know that the baby is not still born or miscarriage. I prayed that the heart of the baby will begin to beat strongly again so that the doctors can scan for the heart beat. God created all of us in our mother's womb and He know's best and He made us wonderful to reflect His wondrous love. I kept speaking LIFE into the womb, LIFE and more LIFE!

As I called out and interceded, I had a vision of Covenant Presbyterian Church. I was in the Sanctuary and I saw heaven in there. Angels were in the Sanctuary worshiping Jesus. God's presence was there. He brought His throne to our sanctuary. He made it His resting place! How AMAZING! HOW GLORIOUS! and I keep saying YES LORD! YES LORD! That is where I wanna be! WOW! WOW! WOW! And this very night, the angels are just preparing the Sanctuary to receive His presence and His Glory for tomorrow's service. WHAT A REVELATION. And as I gaze around this familar place, I saw the stained glass that is all around the sanctuary. The painting of the stain glass represents living water but this night I had the revelation that its more than living waters alone. For this night, tomorrow morning, its OIL! HOLY OIL FROM HEAVEN! Its flowing round and down the middle stain glass and I just shouted instinctively, "SET IT ON FIRE LORD" and He did. He set it on fire that the church becomes a LIGHTHOUSE! WOW! WOW! WOW! What a vision! What an image! The fire never stopped burning. All around the roof where stain glass is, is filled with oil and the OIL IS ON FIRE!!! and it flows round and round and down the middle stain glass and what a great fire! What a great LIGHTHOUSE! and I vividly remember the Lord saying, "This is my house of prayer, of worship, of great light, where missionaries are sent out." And I answered Yes Lord, YES LORD! Let it all come to pass. Let it be as you said it would be.

And by this time I was already walking home. I was about 2-3mins from home. And I told the Lord. I wanna blog about this. I wanna write this testimony and vision and everything. Lord please let my internet be working (as it has been down for about 4 days). The first thing I asked when I reached home was "is the internet working?" and my brother replied ya. Mummy got it working this afternoon. My heart ERUPTED WITH JOY! I cant believe that Jesus answered my tiny little prayer about the internet!!! I know how much He wants me to write this testimony! Glory to GOD in the HIGHEST!

As I shower and begin to prepare to sleep, I was singing praises to God, worshiping Him and I feel so very HOT! My whole body feels like I'm on FIRE! WOW!! WOW!! Its a great feeling! Its great cause I know the Holy Spirit is flowing in and around and about and through me!

This is all able to be posted because JESUS IS A LIVING GOD WHO LOVES ME AND HEARS MY PRAYER AND IS SO INTERESTED IN MY LIFE!!!

AND Jesus love you too, and He is just as interested in my life and He is in yours!

God bless!

some words and thoughts

Forgive and forget, judge not, lest be judged. Let him who has no sin cast the first stone. - Jan 11 10

We show grace and mercy towards our adversary to examplify Christ who is in Heaven. And the reason to do so when is because, I am not my own, I have been purchased with His blood.

Worship is really about people being in God's presence together. Its when God comes and be among His people. Music alone or instrument(s) cant usher in God's presence, only the heart of a worshiper can. - Jan 12 10

One para rant

Most of them with this name I know are pretty, hot and fun and they have a special talent too. Sigh, I've not met one who would be with me though. Hello world, I feel trashy the last few days cause I did wrong and the trashy feeling is all over me. Never happened before but I guess its good. Cause that means that my 'what-you-did-is-wrong' meter is working and it helps me to choose what is right. I think being in God is like that. Things turn out fine, even in storms. When you are not in Him, things will never be fine, even in a sunny day, you might get bird shit or no empty cabs. Well, you might think that such stuffs are too small, but the small things are warnings of what is going on around you. When things get too huge, you might just regret not obeying. And though I also feel that at this moment the bread is not enough, I'm beginning to see how He provides. And He has never failed. I'm amazed always. If only I keep choosing Him, perhaps I'll be surprised again and again. I am rather emo at this moment, but I happen to come across Colbie Caillat's Falling for you on youtube and I'm begining to lighten up :) Maybe I like white blondes? Hah! Anyway, I saw a Gibson Humming Bird TV VOS selling second hand for 4.7k... A new piece might cost around 6.4k but there are only 167 pieces so I think there are no more news ones anymore. When I saw that I was drooling. As I look at it, I think about His providence. I dont doubt it, but I know I have to work and save harder if I really really want to get it. Oh well, one step at a time, for now, eyes on Berklee!

Goodbye 2009

The year has ended and so is the same for all good and bad things.

For all the good things, (KLMT, BSSM, YaYA Camp, TMT, TS) I hope and truly believe that 2010 would bring more of such good things.

For all the bad things, I hope that they'll become memories of lessons learned. Not to be repeated again.

2010 hold many new things for me. Drum lessons, starting of Uni life and mission trips to new places. I hope to attend Church Camp then as it would be my 1st one after 4 years.

2009 flew pass way too fast. I have not recollected and reflected yet and its over. And on the last day itself. I'm learning to walk away from things that are not my problem.

What am I pressing into 2010? Wisdom, Divine wisdom from God the Father. Prophetic anointing and Healing. I wanna learn how to relate to others, how to be a friend and how to love others for who they are. All these can be very 'sian' but in the world out there, many are hurting. Would you love them for My sake?

11-12-09

This is a very weird date.

I'm going to China with my granny and the retreat that I was supposed to be in-charge of is starting in barely a week's time. At this crucial momet, I'm leaving for a "holiday". I feel bad and unfair to the people working on my behalf. I feel like I've neglected my responsibility as an intern. And the training that I was going to be involved in for the TMT, that is a very exciting part of my internship, but I'll miss it due to this trip.

Somehow all these feelings add up and I opened a Msn window typing these words in the message box:

Hey there, I Love you. Take care!

But I closed the window.

Maybe somethings were never meant to be and I just should let things take its own course. Sounds like my departure tomorrow is like my death. I wanted to do and say things before I regret never saying or doing them. I know I'm just being silly and I need sleep right now.

A letter of Love

I just finished writting her a letter. I felt like I couldnt wait anymore. I cannot and must not procrastinate and delay in sending that message of love out. That letter kept me awake. No mostly the sharp pain of what I now know did. I dont know the extend of her problems, but I hope its not six feet deep. I feel like I am now awaken to what is happening around me, things have come to a degree of sharpness. Lord whatever You are doing in my life, please continue to do. I will live a life of adventure with You till the day my head lay rest upon soil.

Love because I first loved you.

When God speaks

What I saw broke my heart. I dont even wanna talk about it. Sometimes what you observe can be true, but what your heart knows, its definitely real. Its even more so when you hear God speak, but then you brush it aside. Telling Him probably this can wait. However, this time it shouted at me. Love her, before its too late.

Circumstances happen for a reason and people make choices in whatever circumstance ther're in, right or wrong, those who have been around in one's life, has a hand in that choice made no matter what. Lord I wanna come through for her. My heart is shattered in a way it has never known and I have to make it known to her.

At this moment I am truely helpless. I know that only God can intervene. It humbles me to know that I can do nothing, but when I see it all change for the better, I know that its God and God alone who has done it. No matter what happens, I'll still praise and exalt His Holy name. My praises can never outshine His Glory and His Glory is not dependant on my worship.

Help me to love her as you commanded Lord. On my knees I humble myself to obey.