Its been almost a month since I last blogged and so much seemed to have happened in this short period of time. In all honesty, I dont know what to say, how to begin and all I wanna do now is Praise God.
Thank you Jesus for redeeming me and making all my sins count for naught when Your blood has wash it all from me. Thank you Jesus that there is power in Your name and that You have gone to the Father that I may do greater things than that while You were on earth. Thank you Holy Spirit from empowering me and teaching me what to say or what to do. Thank you for helping to make my connection with God the Father so much clearer and easier. Thank you Holy Spirit for making me so sensitive to the Spiritual realm that though those evil things scares me, I can find courage in You. Thank you Father God for everything. From the begining of my life till now, I Thank you that I have always been on Your mind and whatever that I have thought of or think of, You knew it already and You have always given me more than I can ask for. If there is one thing that I would like to do, it would be to give You back all the Glory and Honour that others has seen in me.
TMT '09 has been an eye opening trip for me. To see deliverance first hand and healing first hand is so exciting. What's more exciting to me is the relationship that God has developed with me. The song that I used to sing when I was younger has become alive in me. The title of the song is "He lives" and it goes like this, "...He talks to me, and walks with me, along life's narrow way..." There are so many events that happened and all of these testimonies are the reminders of God's love and mercy upon His people. I really want to compile all the events and testimonies in my life and organise them in a chronological manner, but that would take a really long time. I hope someday I would have time to do so and when my life is over, I can count my blessings and name them one by one. Giving thanks and praise to God.
As I get activated in all senses, first was prophersy with Sarah, then worship/prophetic worship with Wan Hsi, deliverance with Watchman/Wan Hsi, my Spiritual senses are heightened and I feel tinkles in my hands and feet! Probably thats why Wan Hsi jerks when she prays or when she is 'downloading' from God. Its the same kind of feeling and its not controllable I assure you. It feels like static to me and I know when something is happening in the Spiritual realm.
In this trip God restored one friendship. I know its on the way to recovery and I continue to pray and ask God to seal what He has done so far. God also gave me what I was looking for all along. An elder sister. I am the oldest in my family and I am always looking for someone to look up to. Someone who can listen and advise me on what to do. During the first session where Wan Hsi was sharing on the Father's love, I was praying for the children and as I was praying for them, Father God spoke to me. And then I caught Wan Hsi's eyes and as she walked up to me I asked her if she would be my 'Da Jie'. She asked me why and I told her that being the eldest I usually have no one to look up to and that I have been looking to the wrong people for advise. I really want someone to talk to and someone who would give me advice that are in line with God's principle. I really admire her as my older sister and seriously, we share quite a fair bit in interest (Guitar, electronics, and more to find out...)
So much has been happening in my life. There are some parts that I am not even blogging cause it would have been too long to put it all here. And as I journey with God, I know that my desires are getting inline with His plans as they keep changing to be more God centred that self centred. Travelling worship pastor was what I wanted to do during a session in YAYA camp '09 with Sarah. And God has shown me in this TMT '09 how worship can be used in deliverance. He put a question and a desire in my heart about going to nations where its hard ground and invite His presence there. Not just places like KL or Bangkok, main city mega churches to lead worship in comfortable places, yes, there would be chances like this, but also to places where the only instrument is probably a guitar and voices singing. Would I go to the ends of the earth for His name sake?
Perhaps that is why my journey with God is meant to be adventurous. Along the way God changes my plan and He wants to see if I am able to trust and obey. Even if it causes me to be rejected by others and be in discomfort due to the lack of knowing what's next. Seriously, life with God is meant to be exciting and fun and encouraging and awe-inducing. I dont understand why Christians today look so glum and like knowing and loving God is such a difficult thing to do. I hope that my life would bring refreshing and inspiration to these people.
And on the last note, I hope I never ever forget what the Lord has done for me and to pray for nations that I've been to. I pray that God would keep bringing back memories of His good work that I may spur on for Him. The ultimate prize? His people. And my prayer for the Thais is that this fatherless generation would look to the Father God in heaven that they may receive that fullness of life that is in Chirst Jesus, with the fellowship of the Holy Spirit to enlighten them in their understanding of the Father's heart and to have the mind of Christ, which in turn empower them to do greater things than that which Christ has done while He was on earth. Amen!
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