I thought that Wed night of prophetic worship was awesome, I realised that I spoke too soon. Sunday night ministry at 12am was beyond epic, beyond awesomeness. God's presence was so strong it was like He wanted every single girl in connection house to know that He is Lord and that He loves them with an everlasting love.
I like how I work with Ms Yeong. Its so simple cause we both know who we look to and rely on. I found someone I could look after and start training. In fact, we are so similar in terms of gifts, it wasnt hard at all guiding her! What's funny to me is that I seem to be a dragon trainer. What I meant is that I train big people. People whose influence are huge and they have a huge personality. I train people at the leadership level. I really love that, I enjoy that a lot. Cause working with God is so easy. He teaches me what to say :)
This is exciting times. See how God is working in the lives of these young ladies and how hungry they are for Him. So now that Wanhsi has started something in ANC, its up to me to sustain it. I thank God that at least 1 of the Pastoral staff has seen and know how it works and I pray that I can just work from there to sustain this environment.
I dont have much time to sit here and think deep to blog as I have to leave in few minutes. But just so that I dont forget this experience, this is my reminder: immersed in His water, bright blinding glory, fire of purification, in one with Christ, rising from the ashes, burning bush: burn but not consumed
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
16 Mar 2011: Epic Day
Today is one of the most epic day of my life. Its so epic cause Wanhsi is here and she has brought the teaching of prophetic worship and deeper worship to ANC. God is truly amazing. I sit here awake at 1am to write this and record what happened.
Yesterday Wanhsi was teaching about personal worship and how prophetic worship works. I was suppose to attend that session but my car broke down. So I didnt go. But I knew in my Spirit that something big is happening something really epic. So I asked min and joyce to intercede for the church and Wanhsi that God will really do a great work here in KL.
Today, I met Wanhsi and attended her session on corporate worship (I'll give a detailed update later) and this was something that I was waiting and wanting to hear about in a long time. Thank God she taught this while I was around.
For the last I dont know how many months, I have been real dry. I'm not totally dry dry, but in comparison to what I was before, this is dry man. I didnt admit that I was feeling dry, I wanted to press in to see if God would do something, but I guess I gave up half way sub consciously and I didnt manage to draw nearer to Him.
Today Wanhsi made me play the drumset. She said play it prophetically. See where the Spirit is leading and while I was playing, all I was thinking are beat patterns and rhythms. There are some parts where God was telling me something but I am not sure what. I just went with the flow.
At the end of the 2hr worship session, I got the whole picture. We were fighting a battle to break through to something. When we started, we were like a procession welcoming the King, but He wasnt here yet. So we played and worshiped. Then I heard the Holy Spirit say now play like the King is here. In grand honour and praise. Lift up the praise. That took a long time and when I was about to give up, cause I was tired, Wanhsi was at the side saying, press in! Press In! So I did. Then after the presence came, we wanted His glory and that took a long time to come. Breaking through to receive His glory is a tough thing. Its like the whole multitude need to be in sync and of one Spirit before that Glory breaks through like a morning light.
After the Glory and the Presence came in, its was rejoicing time. I heard God said the battle is won and now its celebration. That took up most of the worship. I learnt today that in worship, the preparation and the procession for the King's presence is the shortest part of worship. Waiting for His glory to shine through and the celebration of victory is the longest part of Worship and heaven is in continual worship of celebration.
Playing drums in prophetic worship was what I was born to do. I know I am not technically good, but I will get there some day and worship without restrictions. In fact I believe that not just drums, guitar, bass, keys, vocals. I was born to Worship God without out any limits and to lead people into it.
I am so glad how God planned for Wanhsi to be here at this time. It really means so much to me. When I meet her again on Friday I am going to tell her all these cause she and tonight's experience means a lot to me.
May all that I do, in every aspect of my life, bring Glory to name of Christ Jesus, my Father God in Heaven and my comforter and friend, the Holy Spirit, AMEN!
Yesterday Wanhsi was teaching about personal worship and how prophetic worship works. I was suppose to attend that session but my car broke down. So I didnt go. But I knew in my Spirit that something big is happening something really epic. So I asked min and joyce to intercede for the church and Wanhsi that God will really do a great work here in KL.
Today, I met Wanhsi and attended her session on corporate worship (I'll give a detailed update later) and this was something that I was waiting and wanting to hear about in a long time. Thank God she taught this while I was around.
For the last I dont know how many months, I have been real dry. I'm not totally dry dry, but in comparison to what I was before, this is dry man. I didnt admit that I was feeling dry, I wanted to press in to see if God would do something, but I guess I gave up half way sub consciously and I didnt manage to draw nearer to Him.
Today Wanhsi made me play the drumset. She said play it prophetically. See where the Spirit is leading and while I was playing, all I was thinking are beat patterns and rhythms. There are some parts where God was telling me something but I am not sure what. I just went with the flow.
At the end of the 2hr worship session, I got the whole picture. We were fighting a battle to break through to something. When we started, we were like a procession welcoming the King, but He wasnt here yet. So we played and worshiped. Then I heard the Holy Spirit say now play like the King is here. In grand honour and praise. Lift up the praise. That took a long time and when I was about to give up, cause I was tired, Wanhsi was at the side saying, press in! Press In! So I did. Then after the presence came, we wanted His glory and that took a long time to come. Breaking through to receive His glory is a tough thing. Its like the whole multitude need to be in sync and of one Spirit before that Glory breaks through like a morning light.
After the Glory and the Presence came in, its was rejoicing time. I heard God said the battle is won and now its celebration. That took up most of the worship. I learnt today that in worship, the preparation and the procession for the King's presence is the shortest part of worship. Waiting for His glory to shine through and the celebration of victory is the longest part of Worship and heaven is in continual worship of celebration.
Playing drums in prophetic worship was what I was born to do. I know I am not technically good, but I will get there some day and worship without restrictions. In fact I believe that not just drums, guitar, bass, keys, vocals. I was born to Worship God without out any limits and to lead people into it.
I am so glad how God planned for Wanhsi to be here at this time. It really means so much to me. When I meet her again on Friday I am going to tell her all these cause she and tonight's experience means a lot to me.
May all that I do, in every aspect of my life, bring Glory to name of Christ Jesus, my Father God in Heaven and my comforter and friend, the Holy Spirit, AMEN!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Once upon a Village
Channel News Asia new program about an accomplished violinist who goes into a village to conduct a violin camp for kids. She will then select a child to be trained under her wings.
When I heard this, I goosebumps. The good kind of bumps. Something within me stirred. Can music save and feed kids?
When I heard this, I goosebumps. The good kind of bumps. Something within me stirred. Can music save and feed kids?
Sunday, March 6, 2011
What I miss the most
You know I can be in a happening place, filled with people and yet be the most lonely soul on this very earth. Yes, as I sit here (in PJ, Uncle Hok Seng's place), away from the world, away from my exams, my mind starts to reflect on its own. The previous post has hit me real hard. Its beginning to take root and make sense within me and my flesh is struggling against the Spirit to do what is right.
I have never been able to be this peaceful, this still for a long while. Music has taken over my mind and most of the time I'm thinking about beat patterns, homework, assignments and whatever else that is school related. This is a breath of fresh air. I miss being able to think so clearly, without any distracting thought.
As I sit here, I dread going back to KL. I fear loneliness. Oh my, I have been fortunate so far that I have a great housemate as company. Church mates in KL are only so-so if I may say. I guess it because we never really managed to share our lives deeply and affect each other. Today, Clinton is back in KK already, and I am pretty much in a sense alone for the next two days.
It has dawned upon me that why I was so homesick previously was because I missed the people who cared about my life. People who created an environment for me to strive towards godliness and push me to be more like Him. I miss people who matters. These people matters cause they would die for me, just like I would for them. But right now, just this very moment, I am craving for a company. A lifelong companion. Not just someone who I can go out with, hang out with. I wanna be with someone I can build a home with.
I wonder if God made me to crave for His company. I believe we all do, but as much as I crave for company, I cant seem to feel totally satisfied by being with Him. Hey, I know, I know He is all I ever need, I believe that He is. But in reality, I have not experience this sense of company that being with the Lord is all I ever need. I have known that He provides for all my needs. He is the only thing in this life that I can count on. He is the reason why I am alive, why I worship, why I am even here in KL studying music. But in a companionship kinda way, I have never known to be satisfied. I wonder if Paul felt the same? I mean afterall, Paul still travelled with a companion, Barnabas or Timothy.
There are many girls around. There are no lack for He has shown me that He can provide, even in a place I least expected. I marvel at His works and and am amazed.
I just had a serious talk with uncle Hok Seng. They are deciding to break up the house church into a smaller group and I am going to be one of the leaders there. Yes this is heavy responsibility. In fact I know this is going to be the real deal, but I am very sure that with the help of God, I will be able to lead this group with 2 other leaders.
You know, too many Christians in this world are in maintenance mode. They are just merely keeping the boat afloat. I too am very comfortable with that. But as a house church leader, they are expecting me to disciple people. Bring them to Christ and make them a disciple. In another words, multiply. I feel the stress, like as if there are some quotas for me to fulfill. But all in all, I know the intention is not to have me sit there and warm my chair but to get out there and witness. To be the salt and light for the world.
So God aint putting me here in KL to be suffocated, unlike what I have thought in a previous post. He is training me, both in my craft and in my Spiritual growth. Its going to be difficult. A time of really seeking Him to provide for a Timothy and to learn on the go. I dont know what His plans are at the moment, but I am willing to be obedient.
Its exciting, yet tough time ahead and I only pray that I change to be more like Him. That I can would be truly a light in a dark world out there.
I have never been able to be this peaceful, this still for a long while. Music has taken over my mind and most of the time I'm thinking about beat patterns, homework, assignments and whatever else that is school related. This is a breath of fresh air. I miss being able to think so clearly, without any distracting thought.
As I sit here, I dread going back to KL. I fear loneliness. Oh my, I have been fortunate so far that I have a great housemate as company. Church mates in KL are only so-so if I may say. I guess it because we never really managed to share our lives deeply and affect each other. Today, Clinton is back in KK already, and I am pretty much in a sense alone for the next two days.
It has dawned upon me that why I was so homesick previously was because I missed the people who cared about my life. People who created an environment for me to strive towards godliness and push me to be more like Him. I miss people who matters. These people matters cause they would die for me, just like I would for them. But right now, just this very moment, I am craving for a company. A lifelong companion. Not just someone who I can go out with, hang out with. I wanna be with someone I can build a home with.
I wonder if God made me to crave for His company. I believe we all do, but as much as I crave for company, I cant seem to feel totally satisfied by being with Him. Hey, I know, I know He is all I ever need, I believe that He is. But in reality, I have not experience this sense of company that being with the Lord is all I ever need. I have known that He provides for all my needs. He is the only thing in this life that I can count on. He is the reason why I am alive, why I worship, why I am even here in KL studying music. But in a companionship kinda way, I have never known to be satisfied. I wonder if Paul felt the same? I mean afterall, Paul still travelled with a companion, Barnabas or Timothy.
There are many girls around. There are no lack for He has shown me that He can provide, even in a place I least expected. I marvel at His works and and am amazed.
I just had a serious talk with uncle Hok Seng. They are deciding to break up the house church into a smaller group and I am going to be one of the leaders there. Yes this is heavy responsibility. In fact I know this is going to be the real deal, but I am very sure that with the help of God, I will be able to lead this group with 2 other leaders.
You know, too many Christians in this world are in maintenance mode. They are just merely keeping the boat afloat. I too am very comfortable with that. But as a house church leader, they are expecting me to disciple people. Bring them to Christ and make them a disciple. In another words, multiply. I feel the stress, like as if there are some quotas for me to fulfill. But all in all, I know the intention is not to have me sit there and warm my chair but to get out there and witness. To be the salt and light for the world.
So God aint putting me here in KL to be suffocated, unlike what I have thought in a previous post. He is training me, both in my craft and in my Spiritual growth. Its going to be difficult. A time of really seeking Him to provide for a Timothy and to learn on the go. I dont know what His plans are at the moment, but I am willing to be obedient.
Its exciting, yet tough time ahead and I only pray that I change to be more like Him. That I can would be truly a light in a dark world out there.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Romans 8:18-30
18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that[h] the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[i] have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
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