Technology

The address bar is my short cut to websites and it has always been "h" + "down arrow" for hotmail. I have no idea when it became "h" + "down arrow" to become her blog. The thing is this, her blog lags up my whole com for a good 30secs. If the computer, is like what the HP advert says it is, "the computer is personal again", then this computer of mine is not only personal but is thinking like me now. Gosh, each time I see her blog, I wished she'd come back now, or better, I wished I were there with her.

So vague that it hurts

I hope it isnt what it is. My heart will just bleed dry. But at the very same moment, I am reminded about a God who is ever faithful. Who never short changed me once and definitely provides for all my needs. Its up to me to trust in this God and surrender all to Him cause that is all He requires of me.

the one

this is the one face I dream of every night. the one smile I've dreamt of seeing. the one girl whom God gave me in a vision. the one desire that was put into my heart. the one I often chose to forget. the one I tried to forget but I cant. the only one person who each time I look at makes my heart skip a beat, my mind to freeze, my legs to wobble and hands to sweat. the one I have gave up to God. the one I told God "take her away and I'll still love you". the one I want to share my life with. the one I really admire. the only one I feel I cant measure up to. the one who is blur at times. the one whose picture is the first I've ever posted. the one I really hope to be married to.

Please dont spread this around, I really hope she doesnt see this. maybe not now at least.