what its like to have your hair in my face.
with you in my arms, under the sun we'll laze.
I'm secretly in love with you
but I dont know if I'm for you.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Feeling Emo
Yea, I'm feeling a little emo now. No Idea why, maybe the song I was listening to was emo, Icebox. Hmm, I agree with Lyd that thinking of someone you like can be fun and to me addictive as well. If only I could mediate on the word of God like this. Thinking about it day and night and keep renewing my mind to the enlightenment that God's give.
Yes, I'm hungry. I'm hungry for the WORD. I realised that I have not been fed for a long time and I have not read the Word enough to sustained. Sermon in church aint helping and I need lessons with Cheryl and David to continue this walk with my Father. I talk to Him a lot and most of the time I'm just either praising Him, thanking Him or lamenting to Him. Its so like one sided. I dont know. And most of the time I'm actually thinking about the 'ideal' wife and when something like strikes me, I'll be like, "Hey Father, you know what I'm thinking right? Is that what you want for me too?" kinda thoughts. Today, the thought was, "She should compliment my weaknesses yet like-minded in our goals to serve God and give Him Glory."
My mind is in a whirl right now. I've got so many things in my head. Well I may say that I'm not worried but I'm just planning in my head my future. I've got my further studies to think about. The career that I want. Girls, yes, I'm a sucker for them and I keep thinking of their good and bad points. My NS vocation. Meeting up with friends. So many things.
Its like when I thought I got a good plan, something or someone will like question the plan and I quiver and then scrap the plan thinking that maybe its not good after all. Oh wells, I've rant enough about problems.
Today we had some Valentine game that went on in the YA. It was planned and executed by Shaun, Lydia and myself. I think it was ok. Not fabulous but good enough for the effort we put in. Lots of work went into preparing, executing and all but it was good fun doing it with Shaun and Lydia. Thank God for them. The name of the game is $h@unhopoly! (instead if monopoly). But instead of buying house and all, you move round the board and do challenges! The challenges are quite fun ok! Had a good time laughing.
After YA was vocal training. Nothing much to say. After that went to SimLim with Cheryl and Joel to buy some IT gadget and Wii games. After SimLim it was to town to meet Cass and Dan Tan. I had a good time at Mos Burger Taka. Thanks for the company guys!
I guess I really need to sit down and plan my future. Then put it at the feet of Christ and surrender it all to Him. Or I do nothing and wait for Him to show me His plan and call me to do His will.
Yes, I'm hungry. I'm hungry for the WORD. I realised that I have not been fed for a long time and I have not read the Word enough to sustained. Sermon in church aint helping and I need lessons with Cheryl and David to continue this walk with my Father. I talk to Him a lot and most of the time I'm just either praising Him, thanking Him or lamenting to Him. Its so like one sided. I dont know. And most of the time I'm actually thinking about the 'ideal' wife and when something like strikes me, I'll be like, "Hey Father, you know what I'm thinking right? Is that what you want for me too?" kinda thoughts. Today, the thought was, "She should compliment my weaknesses yet like-minded in our goals to serve God and give Him Glory."
My mind is in a whirl right now. I've got so many things in my head. Well I may say that I'm not worried but I'm just planning in my head my future. I've got my further studies to think about. The career that I want. Girls, yes, I'm a sucker for them and I keep thinking of their good and bad points. My NS vocation. Meeting up with friends. So many things.
Its like when I thought I got a good plan, something or someone will like question the plan and I quiver and then scrap the plan thinking that maybe its not good after all. Oh wells, I've rant enough about problems.
Today we had some Valentine game that went on in the YA. It was planned and executed by Shaun, Lydia and myself. I think it was ok. Not fabulous but good enough for the effort we put in. Lots of work went into preparing, executing and all but it was good fun doing it with Shaun and Lydia. Thank God for them. The name of the game is $h@unhopoly! (instead if monopoly). But instead of buying house and all, you move round the board and do challenges! The challenges are quite fun ok! Had a good time laughing.
After YA was vocal training. Nothing much to say. After that went to SimLim with Cheryl and Joel to buy some IT gadget and Wii games. After SimLim it was to town to meet Cass and Dan Tan. I had a good time at Mos Burger Taka. Thanks for the company guys!
I guess I really need to sit down and plan my future. Then put it at the feet of Christ and surrender it all to Him. Or I do nothing and wait for Him to show me His plan and call me to do His will.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Wine and Cindy&PengFong
Yes, my beloved cousins are back in Singapore for the Lunar New Year! They are my beloved cousin and cousin-in-law cause not only do they pamper me with good alcohol, they too talk me out about stuffs that would help me make a better decision in life.
So today I had 2 parties at Blue Horizon. The first was Lydia's house warming. The food was alright and I give them credits as its all home cooked food! Really lots of efforts put into preparing them. She booked a tennis court and I had fun playing. Cass brought cards and we played bridge. It was nice to have en xuan to mix with us.
After that event it was my Grand Uncle place for dinner. They prepared BBQ and Steamboat. Food was good, well, the BBQ stuffs were ordered, not home made, so the quality was professional. As for the steamboat, I wasnt interested at all. Cindy came over with Pengfong from a friend's place. They just had 9 bottles of wine in 5hours! Goodness gracious me! That is madness. But what is really mad is the wine that was left over. This bottle named RBJ is a wine made by 3 really good wine maker. The wine is 13 years old but it still have its flavour retained. Amazing. Smooth tasty wine. The price, somewhere in the region of SGD$80.
She brought 4 bottle of her own. 2 reds 2 whites. The whites are nice. The first bottle opened is a Italian white. Light and crisp. The second red opened was an Italian red. A rather normal table red. It was rather forgettable. The 3rd a Saint Claire(NZ) Resling. Not the usual sweet ones but the zesty limely kinda flavour. Its nice and refreshing. Love it for its tangyness. And the last. Its my favourite now. An American red wine. Its good cause the winemaker is good. Bondavi(I guess its the name of the winemaker). Its a Cabernet Sauvigon, to me, a red that cant be trusted as its all over the place. But what changed my mind is how smooth and flavourful this wine tasted. Really crafted perfectly by this fabulous winemaker. I even thought for a moment that the wine tasted like a merlot. Wonderful wine and its cheap. Not more that SGD$20. According to Cindy, this is one of the lower range of wine that this winemaker makes. I just cant imagine the upper range that he makes. It would definitely blow my mind!
Well, that is CNY for me. Fun and drinks and catching up with my cousins and friends and just be merry. Tuan yuan shi ke kuai le he xin fu de shi. Let no one, nothing, spoil the fun for you!
So today I had 2 parties at Blue Horizon. The first was Lydia's house warming. The food was alright and I give them credits as its all home cooked food! Really lots of efforts put into preparing them. She booked a tennis court and I had fun playing. Cass brought cards and we played bridge. It was nice to have en xuan to mix with us.
After that event it was my Grand Uncle place for dinner. They prepared BBQ and Steamboat. Food was good, well, the BBQ stuffs were ordered, not home made, so the quality was professional. As for the steamboat, I wasnt interested at all. Cindy came over with Pengfong from a friend's place. They just had 9 bottles of wine in 5hours! Goodness gracious me! That is madness. But what is really mad is the wine that was left over. This bottle named RBJ is a wine made by 3 really good wine maker. The wine is 13 years old but it still have its flavour retained. Amazing. Smooth tasty wine. The price, somewhere in the region of SGD$80.
She brought 4 bottle of her own. 2 reds 2 whites. The whites are nice. The first bottle opened is a Italian white. Light and crisp. The second red opened was an Italian red. A rather normal table red. It was rather forgettable. The 3rd a Saint Claire(NZ) Resling. Not the usual sweet ones but the zesty limely kinda flavour. Its nice and refreshing. Love it for its tangyness. And the last. Its my favourite now. An American red wine. Its good cause the winemaker is good. Bondavi(I guess its the name of the winemaker). Its a Cabernet Sauvigon, to me, a red that cant be trusted as its all over the place. But what changed my mind is how smooth and flavourful this wine tasted. Really crafted perfectly by this fabulous winemaker. I even thought for a moment that the wine tasted like a merlot. Wonderful wine and its cheap. Not more that SGD$20. According to Cindy, this is one of the lower range of wine that this winemaker makes. I just cant imagine the upper range that he makes. It would definitely blow my mind!
Well, that is CNY for me. Fun and drinks and catching up with my cousins and friends and just be merry. Tuan yuan shi ke kuai le he xin fu de shi. Let no one, nothing, spoil the fun for you!
Ex(s)
Let me start of by saying that I'm not bad mouthing or 'kiss-and-tell' it all kinda stuffs that I'm about to write. Yes I know I dont need an (s) at the back of mine, but its just for the majority. I just came back from a chill out session with some of my really good friends and we were talking about this and it seems really interesting what we were talking about.
So, the story goes like this, S is my friend that I hang out with. He has a girlfriend and she is C. So recently S and C arent seen together anymore and S seems to like have a sudden weird interest in other girls. So our suspicion arise as S isnt that kind who would gain an outspoken interest in other girls while he is attached. I have not seen C around for quite sometime already and so I decided to ask J who is S's close buddy. According to J, S didnt mention anything about break up but when questioned about C, he merely responds with a " I have not spoken to her in a long while". So since J couldnt get anymore out of S, J and I decided to go and ask C directly.
C is S and J's common friend. So getting C out wasnt an awkward or out of a blue thing to do. We talked to C and we got the answer from her. S and her have broken up and she wants to talk to him but he isnt keen. So here comes out topic.
1) The guy usually dont want to talk to the girl after a break up.
2) Its wrong of other guy friends to hang out with a buddy's Ex.
3) The Ex(guy/girl) will bad mouth about the ex(s).
Apparently, (1) seems to be true. I, myself, for one, am like that. I dont know what is the reason that I dont want to talk to her but I just dont want to. For N is the same. He doesnt really bothers about his Ex. Maybe he does talk to them when hee needs to, but usually he wont want to talk to them or mention about them at all. When others does, he gets defensive and sometimes angry. As for S, he is a total no go. He hates them, doesnt want to talk about them, see them, be near them. Its a total excommunication for him. So, for (1) it really does seem that Ex is an Ex and I have nothing to do with them unless REALLY REALLY no choice or life and death situation or last resort that a guy would find an Ex.
I have always thought that its fine that my buddies hang out with my Ex. I mean after all they could be mutual friends too and in time that we have dated, some of my friends would have become her friends too. But from N's point of view its not a good to be doing. You are not being loyal to your buddy! And he feels that its like wrong to be out with your buddy's Ex. But he did agree that its fine sometimes and that your buddy need not know that you meet up with his Ex. As for S, you know that he is no go, so his stand perhaps would be its wrong. And probably ask you back, " What do you want by hanging out with her, you tell me."
I really dont think that your Ex would bad mouth about you. I feel that I go for both looks and character so I know if she is a nice girl or not. Maybe I have only 1 ex so I cant comment on this. Or maybe I was lucky to have a rather nice ex who doesnt do it, or maybe I just dont know what she says behind me! but N really thinks that would happen. I think he feels this way cause he had an ex that was scary after they broke up but I dont think any of them ever bad mouthed him.
So in my opinion, I really think that after a break up its hard for Ex(s) to be friends and talk. Its far easier ignoring each other and just get on with life. And I still dont think its wrong that my friends hangs out with my Ex. I mean I do get jealous (like why do they rather go out with her than with me) but I have to be rational. My friends are her friends too, I cant be selfish and self-centered and be a spoil brat. As for the last topic, I've just got 1 thing to say about this: You are the one who chose girl/guy. If you go for just looks only, then probably you would end up having one that bads mouth you to all of your friends and her friends and eveyone else and make you look like a jerk. I go for looks (yes that is important) and I go for character (this is even more important) and would seriously date them if they possess both elements. In this case, I wont have to worry about they bad mouthing part, cause I know I'm a very very NICE guy (ok you can vomit/faint or whatever you want though that is the truth!) and I'll treat her very well. And if they have a good character, they wont bad mouth. They would probably just let it go (I think, girls are hard to predict and understand).
If you have any opposing thoughts or any other thoughts about this, you could respond in the comments section. I would like to hear your opinion. But PLEASE, think before you type. Be kind and gentle in your response. Thank you :)
Characters mentioned in this post are deliberately censored so that their privacy is protected and kept confidential. If you think that you know they characters mentioned, trying to ask them about this would be futile as they wont know what you are talking about. Even if they do know, they wont tell you what they know. Thank you for helping by just taking this as a topic in this blog only. Thank you.
So, the story goes like this, S is my friend that I hang out with. He has a girlfriend and she is C. So recently S and C arent seen together anymore and S seems to like have a sudden weird interest in other girls. So our suspicion arise as S isnt that kind who would gain an outspoken interest in other girls while he is attached. I have not seen C around for quite sometime already and so I decided to ask J who is S's close buddy. According to J, S didnt mention anything about break up but when questioned about C, he merely responds with a " I have not spoken to her in a long while". So since J couldnt get anymore out of S, J and I decided to go and ask C directly.
C is S and J's common friend. So getting C out wasnt an awkward or out of a blue thing to do. We talked to C and we got the answer from her. S and her have broken up and she wants to talk to him but he isnt keen. So here comes out topic.
1) The guy usually dont want to talk to the girl after a break up.
2) Its wrong of other guy friends to hang out with a buddy's Ex.
3) The Ex(guy/girl) will bad mouth about the ex(s).
Apparently, (1) seems to be true. I, myself, for one, am like that. I dont know what is the reason that I dont want to talk to her but I just dont want to. For N is the same. He doesnt really bothers about his Ex. Maybe he does talk to them when hee needs to, but usually he wont want to talk to them or mention about them at all. When others does, he gets defensive and sometimes angry. As for S, he is a total no go. He hates them, doesnt want to talk about them, see them, be near them. Its a total excommunication for him. So, for (1) it really does seem that Ex is an Ex and I have nothing to do with them unless REALLY REALLY no choice or life and death situation or last resort that a guy would find an Ex.
I have always thought that its fine that my buddies hang out with my Ex. I mean after all they could be mutual friends too and in time that we have dated, some of my friends would have become her friends too. But from N's point of view its not a good to be doing. You are not being loyal to your buddy! And he feels that its like wrong to be out with your buddy's Ex. But he did agree that its fine sometimes and that your buddy need not know that you meet up with his Ex. As for S, you know that he is no go, so his stand perhaps would be its wrong. And probably ask you back, " What do you want by hanging out with her, you tell me."
I really dont think that your Ex would bad mouth about you. I feel that I go for both looks and character so I know if she is a nice girl or not. Maybe I have only 1 ex so I cant comment on this. Or maybe I was lucky to have a rather nice ex who doesnt do it, or maybe I just dont know what she says behind me! but N really thinks that would happen. I think he feels this way cause he had an ex that was scary after they broke up but I dont think any of them ever bad mouthed him.
So in my opinion, I really think that after a break up its hard for Ex(s) to be friends and talk. Its far easier ignoring each other and just get on with life. And I still dont think its wrong that my friends hangs out with my Ex. I mean I do get jealous (like why do they rather go out with her than with me) but I have to be rational. My friends are her friends too, I cant be selfish and self-centered and be a spoil brat. As for the last topic, I've just got 1 thing to say about this: You are the one who chose girl/guy. If you go for just looks only, then probably you would end up having one that bads mouth you to all of your friends and her friends and eveyone else and make you look like a jerk. I go for looks (yes that is important) and I go for character (this is even more important) and would seriously date them if they possess both elements. In this case, I wont have to worry about they bad mouthing part, cause I know I'm a very very NICE guy (ok you can vomit/faint or whatever you want though that is the truth!) and I'll treat her very well. And if they have a good character, they wont bad mouth. They would probably just let it go (I think, girls are hard to predict and understand).
If you have any opposing thoughts or any other thoughts about this, you could respond in the comments section. I would like to hear your opinion. But PLEASE, think before you type. Be kind and gentle in your response. Thank you :)
Characters mentioned in this post are deliberately censored so that their privacy is protected and kept confidential. If you think that you know they characters mentioned, trying to ask them about this would be futile as they wont know what you are talking about. Even if they do know, they wont tell you what they know. Thank you for helping by just taking this as a topic in this blog only. Thank you.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Just some random memory
I just saw someone's friendster. Someone I've found in school cause my Best Bud Nick thought she was nice. I'm sure she is. I mean after looking at her profile for a while (then) I have added her to my list of friends. She has a look that I can say every morning when I wake up next to her that she is the prettiest thing I've ever set my eyes on.
Just a description on how she looks like may give you a rough idea of how the girl I like should be.
1) The thing that attracts me to a girl is how pretty she is (facial beauty that is)
2) She got eyes that can speak (full of emotions and feelings like by looking at her eyes you know if she is sad, angry, happy) ( this is highly important for me)
3) She's got a smile that melts your heart totally. (and drain your pocket dry)
4) She got a side parting for her hair. (and knows how to pin it up at times to look neat and tie up to look sporty)
5) Dress up simply yet looks so hot to die for (not over exposed yet, sweet demure and matured)
6) Apparently I like girls with round nose (as observed by my sister)
So yea, that is a description of the girl I like. Roughly that would be it. If there is anything else I realise that I like, I'll add it in here again.
Just a description on how she looks like may give you a rough idea of how the girl I like should be.
1) The thing that attracts me to a girl is how pretty she is (facial beauty that is)
2) She got eyes that can speak (full of emotions and feelings like by looking at her eyes you know if she is sad, angry, happy) ( this is highly important for me)
3) She's got a smile that melts your heart totally. (and drain your pocket dry)
4) She got a side parting for her hair. (and knows how to pin it up at times to look neat and tie up to look sporty)
5) Dress up simply yet looks so hot to die for (not over exposed yet, sweet demure and matured)
6) Apparently I like girls with round nose (as observed by my sister)
So yea, that is a description of the girl I like. Roughly that would be it. If there is anything else I realise that I like, I'll add it in here again.
Friday, February 1, 2008
TGIF
Well lets start with thanks giving shall we? Since we are taught that we should give thanks at all times and that we should start our praying with thanks giving in our heart. But still its easier also to blog chronologically. So here it goes...
TGIF! Yup Thank-God-Its-FRIDAY! the end of the week but its not today that I'm referring to but LAST friday. Yes last friday was AWESOME! Well, we were supposed to have a group dinner. I dont know if I could called it a CG dinner but anyway, since BAG was postponed to the next day Clare and Cass decided to organise a dinner get-together. Well I expected LOTS of people to attend. But what I did not expect was the outcome of the attendance on the night itself. Its was simply Clare, Lyd, Vanny and ME! Well, I dont know if I were beaming all the way but I think I showed that I was happy. Oh the food was good too. I like the Fried potato ball =)
ps Lyd: I would gladly pay for her and you and clare for this perfect dinner but being a NSF that I am, I really cant afford it.
After dinner we went to meet Cass (who was late as usual) at Holland V. We decided to go to Settlers Cafe to play some games. Well, I have never been to Settlers so it was an eye opener for me. I can proudly say that Mind's Cafe is loads better! I'm not bias but just looking at the set up, my previous boss Alvin(too) had planned far better than Settlers.
It was fun playing at Settlers. Not that the games were damn fun but the company was GOOD! Ok, maybe I'm being bias here. But no matter what I was enjoying myself. Lyd had to go off first and so after she left we didnt felt like playing anymore also and decided to go chill elsewhere.
We ended up at Coldrock(I think, as I seemed to have forgotten the name of the place) eating ice cream. Well, I dont know why but I felt like having Sorbet and had 2 scoops of Sorbet. One lime and the other mango. As for Vanny, Cass and Clare they chose something funny. I dont know what it was or how to describe it but it just tasted weird. I'm glad I had my Sorbet.
Guess who we saw 'pa tor'ing there? Mr Ethan Ho and his date Ms Ruth Wong!!! Well Ruth is staying in a rented place near Holland V as her school is nearer to this area and Mr Ho was sending his date home. So nice huh...
By the time we decided to leave Holland V it was close to 11.45pm. We walked to Bouna Vista Mrt with hopes to catch the last train. Thank God we managed to board the last train to Pasir Ris. I was with her alone in the train. It was a little awkward and I did not know what to say. I tried making small talk with her, but she looked tired, so we had pauses of silence. I had made up my mind to send her home before entering the train. I really wanted to send her home. But somehow, something in my head told me that doing nothing is better than doing something. With much reluctance, I left the train at Raffles Place to take the North-South Line home.
Boarding the train I couldnt resist but I had to message her. Its something that Sammie had kinda like made a habit into me. She would always say when we part, "Let me know when you're home ok. Be safe." and that was what I smsed her. I didnt really expect her to reply. But when I was home I had an sms that was from her telling me that she is home safe and sound. If you could imagine this then please do. I jumped for joy :)
Anyway, that Friday night was awesome. Perhaps there would be something more in the near future to come.
TGIF! Yup Thank-God-Its-FRIDAY! the end of the week but its not today that I'm referring to but LAST friday. Yes last friday was AWESOME! Well, we were supposed to have a group dinner. I dont know if I could called it a CG dinner but anyway, since BAG was postponed to the next day Clare and Cass decided to organise a dinner get-together. Well I expected LOTS of people to attend. But what I did not expect was the outcome of the attendance on the night itself. Its was simply Clare, Lyd, Vanny and ME! Well, I dont know if I were beaming all the way but I think I showed that I was happy. Oh the food was good too. I like the Fried potato ball =)
ps Lyd: I would gladly pay for her and you and clare for this perfect dinner but being a NSF that I am, I really cant afford it.
After dinner we went to meet Cass (who was late as usual) at Holland V. We decided to go to Settlers Cafe to play some games. Well, I have never been to Settlers so it was an eye opener for me. I can proudly say that Mind's Cafe is loads better! I'm not bias but just looking at the set up, my previous boss Alvin(too) had planned far better than Settlers.
It was fun playing at Settlers. Not that the games were damn fun but the company was GOOD! Ok, maybe I'm being bias here. But no matter what I was enjoying myself. Lyd had to go off first and so after she left we didnt felt like playing anymore also and decided to go chill elsewhere.
We ended up at Coldrock(I think, as I seemed to have forgotten the name of the place) eating ice cream. Well, I dont know why but I felt like having Sorbet and had 2 scoops of Sorbet. One lime and the other mango. As for Vanny, Cass and Clare they chose something funny. I dont know what it was or how to describe it but it just tasted weird. I'm glad I had my Sorbet.
Guess who we saw 'pa tor'ing there? Mr Ethan Ho and his date Ms Ruth Wong!!! Well Ruth is staying in a rented place near Holland V as her school is nearer to this area and Mr Ho was sending his date home. So nice huh...
By the time we decided to leave Holland V it was close to 11.45pm. We walked to Bouna Vista Mrt with hopes to catch the last train. Thank God we managed to board the last train to Pasir Ris. I was with her alone in the train. It was a little awkward and I did not know what to say. I tried making small talk with her, but she looked tired, so we had pauses of silence. I had made up my mind to send her home before entering the train. I really wanted to send her home. But somehow, something in my head told me that doing nothing is better than doing something. With much reluctance, I left the train at Raffles Place to take the North-South Line home.
Boarding the train I couldnt resist but I had to message her. Its something that Sammie had kinda like made a habit into me. She would always say when we part, "Let me know when you're home ok. Be safe." and that was what I smsed her. I didnt really expect her to reply. But when I was home I had an sms that was from her telling me that she is home safe and sound. If you could imagine this then please do. I jumped for joy :)
Anyway, that Friday night was awesome. Perhaps there would be something more in the near future to come.
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