What A God!

Psalms 18:30: "What a God! His road stretches straight and smooth. Every God-direction is road-tested. Everyone who runs toward him Makes it." - The MSG Translation

ESTJ

Being an ESTJ, what you see is what you believe. That is fundamentally how you function. Primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. So basic on logic and whatever I am seeing or know, it contradicts with what I am hearing. This causes me to doubt, to think if everything you say is true or not. I'm not sure about my feelings because it feels like its being toyed by you. Yet you tell me things that I wanna hear and laugh at things I try to be funny about. I wonder is that the real you or is that you trying to act being interested. You dont reply messages (which I honestly dont understand what is so hard about that) or pick up my calls. I want to try loving you, as long as I can being apart but you are not making it any easier. I wonder why I always do such a thing to myself. It not that I dont wanna try, but you are really making it kinda hard. I am a very trusting person. I take you at face value. What you say to me is the truth, I dont think twice about it, but when it contradicts with what I see and what I know, I begin to doubt. And when I start doubting, I go a little crazy from over thinking. I dont know. Just ranting it out here so that if I see he signs coming, I better let go fast. I cannot afford to get hurt, though I allow myself to ever so often. Please be worth it, I've lost too many gems and I cant afford to anymore.