Destiny

Jesus was crucified from the foundation of the world yet there was no room at the hotel for Him to be born. Therefore the Son of God had to be born in a dirty stable.

What does this tell us about life in God? Just because God is in your destiny doesn't mean everything will work out perfectly. And when things don't go well it doesn't mean God isn't in it.

On the other hand, smooth sailing doesn't guarantee that you will arrive on the shores of your promise land.

I have found that sometimes God causes storms to blow you on course. Other times you discover your destiny on the way to look for your donkeys.

But if you seek Him with all your heart you will eventually windup at your God ordained destiny. 

-KV

No one could have put it better. Oh God help!

Jesus Boleh! - HeartDriven Taiwan Trip 2013

It's a miracle that I am typing this right now, right here, from Taiwan. Just 2 days ago, the situation was really very unfavourable with me being stuck in KL, Msia.

Just last Wed, 5 Jun, I was refused entry into Singapore because I had a "SPECIAL" stamp on my passport due to the student visa on my passport. In brief, I had to renew my passport because I needed more than 6 months validity on my passport to purchase the ticket for this trip. With that settled, I went back to Msia with a stamp indicating that I had to go to the immigration office in KL to get the visa. When I came back to KL, I went to the immigration office as instructed but I was turned away by the officer there as they wanted the college to do it for me since I was a student. So when I asked my college for help, I was advised to renew it only when I returned for the next semester.

Little did I realise that I would be turned away at JB's custom (Msian side) due to the stamp. The officer insisted that this stamp had to be resolved in KL immigration office and he would not grant me clearance to leave Msia. With that my parents (who drove up to KL to fetch me home) were forced to me behind in JB and I was alone with a backpack, heading back to KL on a bus.

Arriving back in KL at 4am, and going to college to seek assistance at 9.30am, the drama continued. So at the immigration office, the officer said that I was legal to be in Msia because I had a valid student visa. Despite that, I had to wait 3 working days (normally visa transfer or cancellation takes 1 day as stated on their banner regarding the number of days it would take to process the stated there). So Friday, I was at the office for the whole day waiting and hoping to hear good news, but to no avail.  To the surprise of my Msian church mates, I showed up in church that weekend and asked them to pray for me.

Come Monday, I spoke to one officer, and he said he knows my case and will try to get the boss to do it. Only at 5pm did he tell me that his boss had been out the whole day, so no one could do it.

Tuesday, I went to the office again, spoke to another officer who said, "I know, I know" and that he will get it process. I waited till 5pm again, to find out that nothing was done.

So I missed 2 rehearsals and and was getting annoyed about the whole process that was taking so long, but even so I was at peace. I didn't get angry or feel the need to go and shout at someone at the office but to speak to them with respect and ask them to help resolve this matter. Ryan then sent me a text on Tuesday night that the band were praying for me and told me not to worry, that he believed that God would make a way when there seems to be no way. That God would turn this impossible situation around to reveal His glory.

Lesson learnt: Even in doing "God's work", we may seek do things our way and think that it might be faster. Thank God that I stayed true to my convictions (and refused to resort to bribery for them to process my passport - contrary to the advice of some of my Msian peers).

Wednesday morning, I went to the office and met the same officer as Tuesday. I spoke to him again and told him about my trip and I needed my passport to get back to SG today. So he took a look at my air ticket, and went, "13th, isn't the 13th tomorrow?" and I replied, "Yes, Sir. It is tomorrow and I have to get back to Singapore ASAP." and he went, "Oh! Like that ah. Like that this one is urgent!" and wrote down "Urgent" on my paper, took my number and said that he will process it now. He was the guy in charge of this. He told me to come back after lunch to collect my passport.

Finally. At 3pm on Wednesday, 12 Jun, I received my passport!

I really thank God, even though, being very honest here, that I was upset because I felt so unprepared for the trip, missing out on rehearsals and wasting so much time in KL, that one day before the trip, I managed to get back to SG at 12 midnight (9 hours before the flight to Taiwan) to join the band.

This answered prayer has encouraged the band. I am so glad that one of them actually shared with his cell and got them to intercede for me.

From here we see the power of prayer and that God is above all obstacles that were preventing me to come on this trip. Our God is the God of both the possible and the impossible. Just being here on day 1 itself has been a testimony for me. Meeting Singaporeans here in Taiwan has greatly encouraged me and their shared passion and vision for God's work really resounded strongly within my spirit. It's only day 1 and the sharing we had a while ago are testimonies about the good things God has done for us and we are so encouraged to expect more from Jehovah Jireh, God our Provider!

Truly His love never fails. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.

Ahhh, yes she did.

I'm so glad that you are around even though I have neglected you quite a fair bit. I seem to only rant here and this blog wasnt supposed to be like that. This was meant to be a space I keep my journey with God, not a ranting place. But I guess, it through all these hard and sad times that I find myself and draw to Him, the only One who can sustain me.

Why am I writing this at 6:30am? Cause I'm in a mood too good to be asleep. Yes its the first time since a very long while that I have felt so so good. And the irony, this was the same person who caused me so much pain 9 months ago. Isnt funny how the joy and pain can be caused by the same one person? Perhaps the Father is revealing something to me but its really comforting to know that I am alive with all these feelings. And I guess being faithful and being available is one of the most important virtue that I possess. However, its also true that it takes two to build any kind of relationship. And as I think even further back to how this blog started, it was this paradox, this one person, whose choice would either make me smile or cry.

So we chatted for 1hr 30mins. It was good. We chatted like we were old friends. Deep within her, she has a heart. She has a mother's heart. A heart that is family first and she'll do no matter what to provide. Sad circumstances that she has gotten herself into, but I'm just glad that we talked and she has put her past issues with me aside.

And this song playing, John Mayer's Edge of Desire is just the song. This was her song. A song that reminded me of her. I know I dont make any sense now. But trust me, if anything, I am in cloud 9.

Perhaps this is why...

Guys, an easy way to get in good with Daddy is to marry one of His amazing daughters. Solomon put it this way, "He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from The Lord." - KV

I am waiting. Because I know you want me, a King to seek out and find that good thing, and to have a next level access and favour. I know that full well now. Help me to wait it out. Its gonna be worth it. Yes, I know it will.

Freakishly accurate

Your Existing Situation

"Very emotional and artistic, enjoys being surrounded by beauty and art. Looking for a partner who always has an eye for beauty and who enjoys close, loving relationships."

Your Stress Sources

"Demands to be noticed by others as an important individual, needs attention and recognition. His current situation is leaving him dissatisfied. He feels he needs to make friends with those who hold the same high standards he does. Wants to stand out as someone at the top of his class and be admired by others. He needs to feel in control which makes it difficult to give of himself to another person. He feels isolated and alone but refuses to appear weak and continues to be emotionally distant from others in order to keep his attitude of superiority. "

Your Restrained Characteristics

Current events leave him feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.
"Insists his hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. His self-centeredness can cause him to take things too personally."
"Insists his hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. His self-centeredness can cause him to take things too personally."
Current situations force him into compromise and placing his own hopes and desires on hold for the time being.

Your Desired Objective

Lives life to the fullest. Has a high energy level and is always on the go. He is very active and his actions often lead to success.

Your Actual Problem

Is afraid he will be held back from obtaining the things he wants leading him to act out with a hectic intensity.

Your Actual Problem #2

"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things he accomplishes."

End of something Beautiful

I'm trying not to rant so much here as I have ranted all over the place. Latest victim, Twitter, so here it is. This time things are happening much faster. Like there is a certain urgency. He spoke and I know its time to give up. But as they always say, 3rd time is a charm. Hey, you know what? At least this time He gave a hint, a clue, something to hope for. I dont know when it would be fulfilled, but it would be nice to be soon, like next week... HAHA! So far what I know is that she is like Rachel from the Bible (yes I have a liking for Rachel think Jennifer Aniston from FRIENDS). And she will realise she likes me when she sees me in worship. So far those are the clue. No time indicators like age and all but yea. Hoping to see when its all gonna come and fit in.

Life is hard. Time is a quality that is hard to measure and yet make sense of. I am "wasting" time in many ways but at the same time, I need TIME. So yea, I dont know how to make things work. Money is going out, nowhere near graduation yet. No degree, no job. Sometimes, the easier way is to quit and work study part time. But I think it'll kill me.

Joy is my greatest weapon, the Joy of the Lord shall be my strength. Not by physical strength nor by might, but by His Spirit. (Baptism verse) and His Spirit is full of JOY! No wonder also that my best friend is JOYce Goh. HAHAH!

2013 is a year of FIGHTING and BREAKTHROUGH! Let the flood gates of Heaven open as a new wave of anointing, CROWNS OF FIRE rest upon His chosen ones :D

Keep on Keeping on, Christ is Lord.

Back to this shit again

Love truly drives one crazy. I wish I never fell in the first place. But how not to? You are my kyrptonite.